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An intellectual is a person who has discovered something more interesting than sex.
Aldous Huxley

Amsterdam

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just got back

Hyde Park

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In England lack of sunshine and warmth don't stop people from going to the park.

British White Children are afraid

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Notice how afraid these children are of water. But I will admit it was fucking cold water.

British "beach

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PS

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BLOGing is Masturbation

Blogging is masturbation and I am now done with it you fuckers don't care about what I have to say. I will post some pictures occasionally. And maybe something interesting. BY no means is what I have to say significant or even relevant. Stop reading this shit.

Valhalla

I was a sacrifice to your gods.
I was the virgin that was offered to Odin.
You told me Valhalla awaited me on the other side.

I wanted to believe you.
As I walked up the steps to the alter.
I wanted to feel the honor.

I trusted and loved you.
Love was what would guide me to salvation.
Every step I take gives me more doubt.

I see the alter ahead of me.
I know I must continue to not bring shame to you.
Love does not lie.

As I walk up the alter I sense that this death will be honorable
I know that the gods will welcome me.
I see the uncertainty on your face.

But love and sacrifice are the same.
You tell me the people will always love me.
I will be the savior of all.

I will become more than human.
The gods will call me champion.
I will sit next to Odin himself in Valhalla.

I lay myself on the alter willingly.
I see the Volva raise the knife.
and before it comes down.

I do not see Odin.
I do not see Valhalla.
All I see is the blade about to take my life.

And as it passes through my flesh.
I know now that there are no halls of Valhalla.
I have just died for nothing.

I was sacrificed to idol gods.
I was sacrificed for nothing.
My death is nothing.

Flower In Kew Gardens

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This one goes out to you Alex Hessler

Returning to Los Angeles in aprox a month

I will be returning to Los Angeles in a month. This has been one of the most profound experiences of my life. It marked the end of an era. And the beginning of something new. I left LA in a 3 year relationship ready to get back and focus on "our" life together. And now I will return single and attempting to rebuild a life that has fallen out from under me. I will be alone I will be single and it is time to know what that is.

"We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone." - Orson Welles

I think it is time for me to come to terms with this reality and learn to enjoy it.