The Truth
The truth about life I have come to realize that there is no point. I think for me the hardest lesson I have had to learn is that life isn't a grand show. We are the abandoned we are alone in that it is up to us to carve the future that we want. And that is the hard part. What is that future? What is it that we want? I do not know what I want I do not know what I want to do with my life. And that to me is probably one of the most frustrating things that I have ever encountered. As I stare inwards, As I try to put together an image of my future, no pieces slide together no image is formed it is shadows dancing and never becoming something real. It is like starring into the infinite abyss and the only perception of an image is your mind trying to assemble something out of nothing because there simply has to be something there.
As I talked to many of my friends about this to my complete lack of surprise many have the same problem. What does this mean? Has this been happening to young men since the dawn of rational thought. Have such philosophers as Plato and Aristotle filled there minds with questions of our purpose simply because they look into themselves and see nothing as well. Is the need for meaning so pervasive that we turn to god to give us our purpose? Are we simply children huddled in the dark crying out for a reason?
Now look at the generations before us. My father lived during a time of war, the dawning of the civil rights movement, and revolution. His goal in life was to leave Egypt and make something out of himself. It seems pretty simple doesn't it. You are poor try to become rich. Now what about the sons of the rich? What is my goal. Affluence isn't something I desire or need since I have lived for a big portion of my life in a economically stable situation. What does that mean for me? What do I have to fight for? More money and more power? Is that it strengthening the family leap frogging into the halls of the rich and famous through hard work and on the shoulders of my fore fathers? That doesn't seem like a reasonable goal to me.
So what now? Is it as simple as acceptance maybe the answer is the simplest one just accepting your life and doing your best. That in itself seems reasonable but I personally have a very hard time accepting that. I am sorry but I want that passion for life. I want that thing that I see burning behind the eyes. So maybe that's an answer finding the passion finding the thing that drives you? Mayhap even finding a purpose? Well that would be something wouldn't it to find a purpose but what? A man without a purpose is lost. And I truly do feel lost at times. So we are back tot he beginning what purpose is there? Maybe in the end it is just growing up accepting your life marrying somebody popping out a few kids and than passing down your burden onto them since you have made them your purpose.
As I talked to many of my friends about this to my complete lack of surprise many have the same problem. What does this mean? Has this been happening to young men since the dawn of rational thought. Have such philosophers as Plato and Aristotle filled there minds with questions of our purpose simply because they look into themselves and see nothing as well. Is the need for meaning so pervasive that we turn to god to give us our purpose? Are we simply children huddled in the dark crying out for a reason?
Now look at the generations before us. My father lived during a time of war, the dawning of the civil rights movement, and revolution. His goal in life was to leave Egypt and make something out of himself. It seems pretty simple doesn't it. You are poor try to become rich. Now what about the sons of the rich? What is my goal. Affluence isn't something I desire or need since I have lived for a big portion of my life in a economically stable situation. What does that mean for me? What do I have to fight for? More money and more power? Is that it strengthening the family leap frogging into the halls of the rich and famous through hard work and on the shoulders of my fore fathers? That doesn't seem like a reasonable goal to me.
So what now? Is it as simple as acceptance maybe the answer is the simplest one just accepting your life and doing your best. That in itself seems reasonable but I personally have a very hard time accepting that. I am sorry but I want that passion for life. I want that thing that I see burning behind the eyes. So maybe that's an answer finding the passion finding the thing that drives you? Mayhap even finding a purpose? Well that would be something wouldn't it to find a purpose but what? A man without a purpose is lost. And I truly do feel lost at times. So we are back tot he beginning what purpose is there? Maybe in the end it is just growing up accepting your life marrying somebody popping out a few kids and than passing down your burden onto them since you have made them your purpose.
